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Hey~

2010-10-11T11:10:00.000-07:00

Hi guys, last update was JUNE. Whao!!
I'm fine lately and was waiting for my commission. hehe~~
Let's talk about financial 1st, i just closed a deal and right now waiting for my comm. hehe~~~
Family nothing special but added another family member. ROCKY(labrador retriever). Very big side n very quiet.
Love, hehe~~ interesting part. i ended a relationship/friendship with her. i choose an END for it because i can't take it anymore. the longer i stay the stronger feeling i got for her.
Even thought after i ended it, i still dun feel letting go of it because i already had feeling towards her. haiz~~ wat to do. life still goes on and i have to move forward.
hehe~~ when i get my comm i think i should buy myself a watch. hehe~~
Guys, support me ya. Oush JIA YOU JIA YOU~~

Playboy????

2010-06-27T13:47:00.000-07:00

After all this while, i'm that playful, flirty, active and so on~~
Am i really born with it? Is this really my FATE? haha~~ i got no idea, u tell me~
i miss alot of ladies in my life that i ever met. Heartless? ASSHOLE? Bastard?
Don't know why i felt that a person's heart can be sharing in many ways or share it with many people(relationship i mean).
Ya of course my lady can't be doing that(YES i know it's selfish).
May be my future will be lie down with many ladies in my life or may be i will be stay single till the day i sleep in the coffin, WHO KNOWS right? haha~~~ GOD KNOWS.
Anyway, just wanna share it with u people here.
i miss her, her n her~~ Muakx. Hugx. love ya.
Take care~~

Fling~~

2010-06-10T13:14:00.000-07:00

I'm just dun really wanna make this decision but i can't be selfish or what, so i must make the decision for her because she standing at the position where she can't demand anything.
The feeling from her is strong n i can felt it but i cant just ignore that she had a 6years BF right?
Sometimes i just felt that she's kinda cold but sometimes she's really make me smile n light up my day!!
I'm not that kinda person can live with questions but no answer, u get me?
If she really would speak up n let me know how she feel n what she want then i wont make this decision.
I'm really dun wan to have a FULL STOP for this relationship/friendship.
But the situation leave me no choice.
I like YOU, I miss YOU and I want YOU.
Hugx~ Take Care my dear beloved.

7 Months Later~~

2010-06-07T08:56:00.000-07:00

After 7 months i thought i already let it down but actually the mind n feeling still there but just didn't dig it out or pop it out.
One sudden night my friend using my PC to view my profile n saw this picture appear in my photos album and i was surprise n shock to see that.
After November we didnt talk to each other anymore. She live, she die, she suffer, she living happily also none of my business anymore because she leave me no choice but to make this kinda cruel decision.
When u thought u know a person well n that's the time u duno that person well.
My mum go to those fortune teller and they said i better stay away from LOVE, SEX or BF GF stuff because it will bring me bad luck n smth else. haha~~
I think this 2010 i will be stay single, what u think guys? haha~~
SINGLE?

Hey guys~~

2010-06-06T14:17:00.000-07:00

Hey guys long time never update my blog.
Lately, i'm having a fling with this "C" lady, she had a 6years BF.
Haha~~ yeah i know it's suprise neither do i.
Just a bottle of black label will do the MAGIC n pull us together.
I asked her "do u have feeling towards me?"
She said "i dun wan to make u sad or make u happy about the answer."
So i duno what should i do, sometimes in my mind i would just think about her n wanna get along with her but sometimes i just wanna disappear away from her life n leave her in peace.
May be i'm just too free or lonely so i will think about her or wanna get along with her.
Damn~~ what's wrong with me?
Sorry Jesus, i have sin, please forgive me!!

"QUESTION MARK"

2010-05-24T08:22:00.001-07:00

I tried to communicate with u, I TRIED but i didn't get any respond/answer from u.
Things carry on like that and one day someone will get hurt.
I dun wan us become strangers one day.
I didn't ask for anything but i only ask for answer/respond.
Haiz~~ I don't want to make decision from my heart or mind but i wanna listen from u.
Whatever decision it is, i will respect u because i don't like to force people.

You are my QUESTION MARK but not my confusion~

Stuart & "Penny"~

2010-05-20T00:49:00.000-07:00

Haha~~ lately we kinda close to each other.
We go yam cha and supper then we talk about each other life n discuss about love.
She asked me to give her an english name!! haha~~ so i do research n survey, end up i come up with PENNY this name.
PENNY this name not bad what but she seem dun really get used to it or don't like it.
oh She hate VIVIAN or VIVI this name because smth to do with her love. haha~~
No worry one day she will be fine n be a PRO. haha~~
i never knew this day will come. i mean after we break up this long n end up we still keep in touch and come out.
Take care and don't be like me one day HWEI XIAN~~ u will regret because i'm taking all the sin n it's my pay back time. DON'T FOLLOW MY PATH~~
HUGX~

S.O. & C.N.

2010-05-20T00:40:00.001-07:00

The topic represent names.
Things happen kinda awkward lately, she's away but sometimes i will think of her.
Not often but sometimes. i hate those people who spoiled other people relationship but right now i feel that am i that kinda person?
Damn~~ i should just let things follow the flow. Just enjoy the time we have.
Her smile attract me the most. Hehe~~ just a smile can light up my day.
Father, i have SIN. Please forgive me~

Father, i have SIN~~

2010-05-04T13:48:00.001-07:00

Lately, i'm kinda busy n close with someone.
She had a 6years boyfriend.
I follow her to celebrate her Kai Jie birthday and we both just drank some not till that TIPSY~~
After that night, something happen.
I'm kinda confuse for that kinda situation.
When we hang out, we hang out like FRIENDS but deep down we know what's going on.
Sometimes thing just so WEIRD huh? i hate those 3rd person in the relationship n GUESS WHAT, i Stuart Ong become the 3rd person right NOW~~ haha~~ God must be testing me. haha~~
Who knows what happen next rite?

What Goes Around...Comes Around

2010-04-20T13:01:00.000-07:00

Guys i can tell u "What Goes Around...Comes Around" it's really true.
I never thought things will be this dramatic in my life.
It's exactly like a mirror or playback video!!
I'm glad for this experience but feel SHAME for myself.
How many people? how many friends around u could really sit down n look back what they did n see what they did and feel regret for it?
Sometimes i hope i can turn back the time and just control myself not to let this thing happen.
It's GOD or ME who making all this things happen? DESTINY? FATE? 人为?
People said dun look back and should move forward but for me, i move forward n look back too.

She edit this photo and she love it so much that time and she even wrote blog about us n herself.
Such a silly girl but i like it. Right now i'm standing at her position n feel how she felt last time.
The feeling really is so difficult to explain. haha~~ Such a silly person am i now.
i love this photo right now. one of my wish for my birthday doesn't come true anymore!!
God bless her for me FATHER!!!

什么是对?什么是错?

2010-04-14T13:52:00.000-07:00

Can u still specific what is right what is wrong?
Lately i'm kinda awake n crystal clear about what i'm thinkin and doing.
I lie down n start thinkin what's happening lately and i see alot of things.
I'm kinda worry my friends and those person i care the most but i just duno how to show them or tell them how i feel n what to do.
Atleast a msg will be just fine, right?
Jia you my buddies and Bros. Take care and god bless u all.

GooD DaY~~

2010-04-13T01:38:00.000-07:00

Lately kinda busy with my career and hang around with my outsider friends.
i feel so real and happy, Sorrow no longer happen to me.
Hehe~~~ bye bye SORROW and say hi to happiness.
i wonder how r u lately? wanted to hang around with u but feel like always get rejected or u busy.
My birthday is just around the corner, i just hope i can have a wonderful memory with u.

Just a SECOND~~~

2010-04-03T12:17:00.000-07:00

Damn~~~ tonight i almost die n u guys gonna attend my funeral~ SHIT!!!
i was back from a gathering with my friends then i had a few beers.
When i'm on the way home i drive 80/90km/h because someone told me to. then i avoid a cat on the middle of road then i turn to my left n there's a car speeding behind middle lane.
SHIT~~~ i duno how to express here man.
One line can describe it all~~~ "ALMOST THERE MAN"~~~
GOD BLESSING ME n my GRANDMA~~~
THANKS n i will not speeding.

回到过去~

2010-03-30T12:50:00.000-07:00

Lately i keep rewind back all my past.
I saw tears and laughter. I hope i can turn the clock back.
I hope i didn't met EVE before.
I hope i didn't argue with Chin Yuan.
I hope i didn't hook up with that at club n didn't break up with Hwei Xian.
A lot of things happen in my past but all of them are unhappy things.
Yes, people should look forward but not look backward.
Sometimes, look backward i really feel so stupid that why u did this why u did that, haha~~ dun u think it'll make u laugh or drop a few tears for it? Yes it does.
A lot of people ask me which of your ex give u memorable memories? i will answer them it is EVE because i been through a lot with her.
If u ask me which of my ex treat me the best? i think i will answer u, HWEI XIAN, because she's the one who treat me nice n never give up on me but i let her go n left her alone at the corner n walk away(yes i know i'm such a ASSHOLE).
What over is over, i only can move on n be a better man.
God i have SIN, please forgive me.

ARGH~~~

2010-03-25T08:53:00.001-07:00

It's been a long time i feel this much for caring a person.
may be it's just because i myself thinking too much or being stupid to act like this.
whatever la, F*** IT~~
whatever u wanna do then u just go do it because i'm tired of it.
duno what else to say la...

找回自我~

2010-03-21T13:46:00.000-07:00

The Stuart Ong u knew was long gone, i also duno why. May be because i still living in my past.
A body without a soul! i feel so lost lately.
I share all of feeling with my friends and i get a lot of feedback.
It's time for me to move on. i must not wasting my time like that. i should start pumping up myself.
Throw away the laziness and start doing exercise, help out my family, search a job and stabilize my life.
Some one please wack, slap, kick or wake me up!!!! PLEASE~~ i'm struggling here. i feel so suffer!!!
Jia You Jia You~~
This is what the name "Stuart" looks like in Japanese.
It is pronounced "SUCHUAATO".

三宝~~

2010-03-20T12:56:00.000-07:00

One night i accept 3gifts/experiences, i truly can see what's going on and what's happening.
I'm glad that i make that decision that night.
It's been a long time i never hear her voice and talk to her like that.
I see what goes around comes around. hehe~~ CAUTION!! DANGER!!
I learn smth from the others and also myself.
Think is useless but doing it is much more meaningful. hehe~~
I didnt talk to u doesn't mean i'm not care about it. Got it? wink~~ hehe~~
Jia You ba~~

GAME OVER~~

2010-03-19T07:34:00.000-07:00

Everything has a beginning has an end.
Every game also got an ending so for my past it is time to call GAME OVER.
it's better i spend more time on my career, health, family, money and friends.
For love, nah i think i will take it slow now.
4Months single now, haha~~ i bet my friends will be shock n tease me for that. hehe~~
Your comment will mean alot to me, so just feel free to leave a comment here. TQ
God Bless~~

Struggling~~

2010-03-04T00:24:00.000-08:00

After 4months i thought i forgot about her but until yesterday midnight i think about her again so i go to facebook and view her profile and i saw she upload few new photos and in the photos she's wearing the scarf that i gave her.
Yes, it doesn't mean anything but it means a lot to me.
I lost control again. End up i sent her an email, sorry guys. i really can't take it, my body's shaking and my mind keep on thinking our past.
God i have sin, please forgive me.

Lately~~

2010-02-25T11:40:00.000-08:00

Lately, my mood kinda going up and down.
I keep on thinking about her lately. it's really bothering me and i can't focus.
Sometimes it just come across my mind suddenly and disappear later.
Health getting bad, moody always and less appetite.
If i keep on like this, my life will be a mess and live like a TRASH.
Time is what i need, Focus on my career is what i need to do and Get back my normal n health life is what i must.
Oush~~ Jia You Jia You STUART ONG.

我与她~ "S & E"

2010-01-30T10:37:00.000-08:00

She used to work for me as a liquor promoter.
She got a tattoo at her back. haha~~ didnt notice her appearance till one day, i'm sittin down and look around then star to get know her more.
Called her at night to chit chat and get know her more, bit by bit i n her get closer.
Time had come so i decided to take action n ask her be my gf and i success.
Know her only for couple of days and already be a couples(haha~~ kinda fast huh).
Fetch her work and after work, after that she told me that her interview at Airasia as air stewardess passed.
Everyday, driving from my place selayang to cheras and wake her up and fetch her to LCCT and of course after training too.
After 1/2months training, she success n passed all the test and become air stewardess.
The 1st day she told me about the air stewardess interview, i already kinda nervous, scare, down, unhappy, proud and sad. I feel that because i scared one day she'll changed into realistic person.
We were so happy at the beginning, till one night we went to RUUMS together with her younger sister and bf. Things that i felt finally show up.
She went to the dancing stages with her friends and sister, i were upstairs looking at her and i saw this guy go to her and dance with her and ask her for numbers, she knew i was lookin at her and she really give out her number to that guy and doing all this dirty dance with this guy!! What the fuck rite?
Things start getting uglier everyday. we starting to argue to each other.
I'm starting to dropping tears for this relationship.
In this 1year and 6months relationship, i learned alot and see alot.
We both sacrifice for this relationship but still this relationship ended up unhappily.
After we break up, everyday i went out i will look at white colour myvi because that's her car.
This few days, i keep on dream about her. haha~~ i duno why.
I decided i wont avoid it anymore, i used to scare to go shopping complex or go out because i dun hope to see her together other guy holding hands but now i'm not afraid or scare anymore.
I should be think for my career, family and myself. Those things are my concern rite now.
I hope she will be live happily with her life and take care always. Hugx~

Scorpio~~

2010-01-15T19:53:00.000-08:00

In my life there's two scorpio, one is Pelyn, my dearest little sister; another one is my ex gf Eve.
This two scorpio used to make me crazy for them.
I love them and i care about them but end up things didnt went as i expected.
i had observe and research for scorpio, scorpio love life will be complicated. Is it true? Any Scorpio here can leave some of yr experience here? i truly need all the info from u. TQ
i miss my dear little sister and of course i miss my ex gf too but i already can't rmbr her face, i think this is the sign that i slowly forgetting my ex.
Hehe~~ there's still alot of things waitin for me to do. Here i come...
There's no turning back, Oush~~ Jia You STUART ONG~~~

Reputation comes from the company you keep~~

2010-01-11T21:56:00.001-08:00

Anyone understand the meaning of this word?
Last time i did a lot of things that hurt my friends, family and my love one, I'm really so regret for what i did.
I know i shouldn't look back and i should look forward. So right now i get rid of all those childish and immature attitude and get back on track.
For what i had done, i lost my best friend, i hurt someone who love me the most and most important i disappointed my family. The trust from a person is very valuable for me.
This morning i woke up from a nightmare, inside the nightmare i saw my ex together with another guy and i go forward n introduce myself and don't know how i end up fighting with that guy. In the dream i was looking at myself doing it. Try to think, what you did or doing right now, u wont feel anything or sense anything, until one day when u think back or u try to look at the mirror n think what u did, u will see how ugly is yrself and right now i saw how ugly STUART ONG BOON HUI used to be.
I must not lost or disappointed anyone else in my life, career, friendship, love and family.
I, Stuart Ong Boon Hui, hereby to ask for you guys to forgive me and give me a chance to show to u guys, i'm not the asshole, bastard or fucker anymore because i'm truly regret and sorry for wat i did. My karma will come to me and i will take whatever it is.
I'm SORRY; PLEASE, forgive me!!!!

Happy New Year~~

2010-01-01T17:56:00.000-08:00

2months i didnt update my blog already.
How r u guys?
Happy new year guys~~ wat's yr wish for 2010?
hehe~~

Finish~~ "FULL STOP"

2009-11-22T10:05:00.000-08:00

Even thought i heard alot advices from my buddies but still end up i together back with her. I'm SORRY guys but i didnt regret cos i myself decided it.
The 1st time she betrayed me i already noe that one day she will be betray me again, jus that i keep lie to myself tat she will changed and she's love me.
End up she did it again and didnt even pick up my calls at all and jus disappear like that without a trace.
Finally, i lost control for this love.
sometimes i think back, there's happiness and sadness too.
May be taurus really can't communicate or together with any of the scorpio horoscope.
One of my fren told me tat taurus must find VIRGO cos they r a good gf. A gf that will make u feel secure and is a good wife.
Honey~~ i miss u but i hate u too.

I'm So Unhappy~~

2009-11-15T03:34:00.000-08:00

Lately, i'm so unhappy.
Everynight i sleept at 6am++
wake up at 3~5pm.
No Appetite~~ Smoke alot~~
Haiz~~~

New Direction~~

2009-10-28T14:43:00.000-07:00

Celcom?? What do u people know abt celcom?

I can tell you, it's HELL.

my contract with celcom gonna finish at the end of Nov but i'm still thinking whether wanna go or stay?

I'm so confusing rite now, anyone any suggestion??

smth from celcom i already build it up from there n it's hard to jus leave the place n rebuild from another new place.

R.I.P. for 大块~~

2009-10-25T08:59:00.000-07:00

While i'm driving home i received call from my mum and i get the news that 大块 is DEAD~~
someone's car jus run over 大块 in front of my house!!
Normally i will let him go out n shit around but today my mum went back hometown to have wedding dinner and i was working from 11am~11pm so my dad will take care of 大块.
大块 may you R.I.P. i will miss u always.

大块

Hi guys~~

2009-10-13T05:06:00.000-07:00

Lately, nth much about me.
Today sick so i took MC and wednesday n thursday will be my off day.
Hehe~~ 3days in a row.
Erm~~ Lately kinda busy n stress with money n my job.
Planning for getting own car and save money for debts.
Haiz~~ Oush~~

Take It OR Leave It~~

2009-09-28T10:34:00.000-07:00

I'm tired of keep taking the same shit.
It's the time for me to move on n get wat i wan.
I'm single n available, anyone interested? Hehehe~~~
Or is there anyone of u got female frenz which is single can intro to me?
Hehehe~~~
Work and Saving money to pay back debts and get my own car.
Jia You Oh~~~
Take Care Guys~~ Love Yo~~~

Fabulous~~

2009-08-25T11:33:00.001-07:00

After she said break up to me, all the things around seem going on smoothly.
1st i'm in the list promotion.
2nd i'm getting my own new car soon. YEAH~~
Lastly, i can fully focus on what I'm doing.
I must not let all the people and myself down, so i must grab this opportunity and show my best to people so that i can go higher and higher to achieve my dreams.
Jia You Jia You~~~

Great Night~~!!

2009-08-18T11:07:00.000-07:00

Thx to Ben & Cat, thx for spending sometimes to listen to me and give me alot of advices.
almost drop tears in front of them, ALMOST~~ hehe...
after i talk to u guys i'm feeling a lot better but bcuz of me BEN didnt sleep cos later 9am got class.
Ala~~ ben n cat we should come out minum minum ya.
Ben i'm putting all my heart on my career now so that i can achieve my goal!!!
THX BEN & CAT.
Take care~~

Tears!!!

2009-08-18T11:03:00.000-07:00

A night i share my sadness with my buddy Wee Sern, i drop tears in front of him.
i share what had happen with my ex to my buddy Wee Sern.
A night both male also drop tears. haha... dam gay huh? hehe...
i'm happy that i didnt lost all my friends, when things happen i thought i lost all my friends n no1 will be there to listen to me but i'm wrong.
THX WEE SERN, when get my pay, we should go for drinks, ON ME YA. hehe~~
take care bro~~

FUCK YOU BITCH!!!!!

2009-08-16T11:12:00.000-07:00

i never be this angry n hate a person be4, NEVER!!!
she make me put her on my list n be the NUMBER ONE!!!
BITCH BITCH BITCH!!!!
really such a BITCH!!!
I CURSE YOU!!! I CURSE YOU HARD!!!
i hope u will get yr sin and feel/experience it!!!
i can't wait to see the punishment on her. i hope i will be there to see it!!
i will be tough n work hard for my future!!! i must be a success person so that i wont be a SLUM person.
at last FUCK YOU BITCH!!!

I'm Lost~~

2009-08-13T09:41:00.001-07:00

i rmbr my ex gf hwei xian told me tat, Knowing the relationship that will end soon but still want to hang on, tat is tiring!!!
Before this i love a person with heart and soul but rite now i love her without anything but jus a STRONG feeling tat can't let her go.
Knowing tat one day she will go away with another guy but i still fooling myself tat will not happen n i should believe her but i jus can't believe her anymore because she did smth real bad be4 and i cant share it here.
My mind keep rolling n rolling n my heart already gave it to her, what should i do to pull myself out of it? HELP ME HELP ME HELP ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Rite now i truly understand how hwei xian feeling tat time.

Hi guys i'm back~~ miss me?

2009-08-13T09:30:00.000-07:00

Hi guys, lately kinda busy with works and sicked till i took MC for 5days in a row!!! can u blif it?
hehe...
Now my weight is 51KG. sob sob... so thin d. THINNER i should say. hehe...

After 3weeks~~

2009-07-18T07:33:00.000-07:00

Hi people, it's been 3weeks i didnt write anything on my blog.
Everyone is busy nowadays, including me, friends, family and may be the one who reading my blog now too.
i have been busy with my work lately.
I found my current job is kinda busy n it's neccessary tat i must sleep early always if not i wont have energy focus on my job.
i kinda miss all my friends lately. i wonder how r they now?
Guys i miss everyone of you.
Take Care always~~~

Celcom C.S.E.

2009-06-28T11:34:00.000-07:00

Work started.
Time to work, save, sleep early n be disappear from my buddies n friends.
god bless u all guys.
Take Care~~

AhBoi R.I.P. 2003~~2009

2009-06-10T01:57:00.000-07:00

My dear lovely AhBoi jus pass away ytd night 11pm+.
May my dear AhBoi rest in peace.
I will miss n love him. hugx.
Hugx~~~

AhBoi~~

2009-06-02T04:20:00.000-07:00

Smth's wrong with AhBoi!!
I'm so worry about AhBoi rite now.
There's nth i can do about it. Even my parents also cant do anything because they said they got no money.
AhBoi just lie down there n not moving. Sob Sob~~ i'm keep crying non-stop.
i call to the doctor n ask already, the doctor said may be it's stroke!!!
Sob Sob~~ Boi Boi ar!!!
I'm so fucking angry n sad rite now!!! i duno who should i angry, parents? myself?
Here is the photos tat took last time.

This is AhBoi.

This is AhBoi & AhGal.

See wat AhBoi doing. so cute!!!

AhBoi, so cool look at the camera!!!

AhBoi Dun act cool ar.

LoVe(SiX)~~

2009-05-23T14:35:00.001-07:00

Knowing the relationship will not last long is not tired n exhausted, know the person will not change n only will get worse n tat is tired n exhausted.
Disappointment!!!
Not bad to know it early n let it go now.
There's still more ladies and a bright future waiting ahead.
Gambateh!!!

Heart~~~

2009-05-18T05:53:00.000-07:00

How many people can make u feel rare, extraordinary, special or pure?
How many people can treat u with pure n true heart?
I used to treat people with true heart but people take advantage on me.
Now I'm different, i keep a distance with people because i hurt people last time n people hurt me too so i need to protect myself from getting harm/hurt.
Heart~~

Searching Vacancy~~

2009-05-11T11:57:00.000-07:00

Searchin job around lately, hope i will get a job.
Gambateh~~

Left4 Dead~~ Audrey Yap.

2009-05-01T12:36:00.000-07:00

Haha... May 2nd, wee sern, me, charles, n Audrey.
we went WCG setapak play Left 4 Dead.
we non-stop laughin cos audrey make us laugh. haha...
did u ever see a person tat keep shooting on the ground n running around? LOL~~~
"where am i? where am i?" tis is wat i heard all the time. haha...
Nice one Audrey~~
God Bless.
From left to right: charles, Audrey, wee sern n me. haha~~~ "WHERE AM I?"

Why???

2009-04-29T11:40:00.000-07:00

Why let it bother yr life n make yrself suffer so much, yes i heard all my frenz said it n until now only i can do it n hope u all suport me always.
i shall get back my old life, hang out always, find frenz yam cha always, club n of course cari ladies. hehe... LADY make me feel comfort n stabilize me. hehe...
Here i come STU-O~~~
Here i come, hang on ladies n gentlemen. Muakx~~ Hugx~~

FUCK OFF PLEASE~~~

2009-04-29T10:17:00.000-07:00

Not a happy Night for STUART.
A night tat recall back some fucked up memories about some bitch.
Once a Bitch be4, she's a bitch???
But this time the feeling is lighter.
Fuck the Bitch~~ Yeah.

My Birthday~~

2009-04-28T05:04:00.000-07:00

hehe... dun mention the number of my birthday ya. hehe...
I have a real good time for my birthday tis year, thanks to sang, kit, yit, ji, AUDREY, sally, terry, robin, alvin, charles. Love u all.
Oh ya, thx to AUDREY go n STIR the drink for me. TERIMA KASIH!!! LoL~~~
i really have a wonderful time with u guys. THANKS again!!

Sang i'm sorry, tis photo alot of ppl like it so i have to upload. haha...

Fuck!!! Guinness!!! sob sob~~~ ada Guinness Draught ar?

The Egg very nice la n the black colour drink beside really make it a perfect match but mix it together will be DISGUSTIING!!!

Speechless~~~
Audrey, wat u lookin at? u wanna join? LoL~~~

Yeah, i love u all guys, see tis glass Audrey stir d n u can see the 蛋黄 at the bottom!!!

A special birthday gift from a special person. Love it~~~ muakx.

Speechless~~

2009-04-15T05:17:00.000-07:00

Sad, down, unhappy, exhausted~~~
After this long of fight for EVE case, energy, soul, mental, body, mind n heart is really tired.
Even thought i decided to let it go but my feeling still toward her.
No turning back for me cos i know it'll be a right decision, even thought it's hard but i must force myself to move forward.
The Feeling is jus so chaos n confuse.
Be a Man, Do the RIGHT Thing~~

What The Duck~~

2009-04-12T10:46:00.001-07:00

After this long u never change at all n yet still the same.
The FEELING is so tired and fucked up.
No Lut?? cant she jus make me so LUT but no worries after tis much of incidents, i'm done.
i shall start plan how to use my money n start my career.
Sometimes a small lil test can get wat u expect from the person tat u put a task on.
A hold new life shall begin n let's put a full stop for the past, shall we?
Move On~~

Tired~~~

2009-04-12T08:48:00.000-07:00

I'm tired of certain people lately.
i duno how to say n describe wat kinda person tat i'm tired n got no time to waste on them.
it's tired tat u have to keep telling the person tat certain is right n wrong n they still dun get it n come n ask u wat's wrong.

May 五月~~~

2009-04-05T03:41:00.000-07:00

May i stop my study for a period then i will start working.
then i will pay back all my debts and in 4~6months i will get myself a new car.
Gambateh~~~

TaTToo~~

2009-04-05T03:20:00.001-07:00

Here's the look of my new tattoo~~
what do u think? what do u see?
it's my biohazard with stitch, can u see it?
feel free jus leave some comment ya. thx.
Take Care~~

Speak Be4 You Think~~~

2009-03-31T09:52:00.000-07:00

Do u know when u promise, talk or communicate, and others communication, all the words could be so meaningful to others?
Last time, i dun think be4 i speak/talk then wait till the day come i so regret about wat i had said/told n rite now i have learn tat certain things/words u can take it as a joke but certain things/words u cant simply say it or promise the others.
So dun simply promise ppl or say smth which really important/meaningful that u dun mean it cos it could harm the others or bring yrself no good.

Peace After The Storm~~~

2009-03-28T12:03:00.000-07:00

Things kinda smooth n better lately.
It's time to get back on track.
I shall start work n study at the same time so tat i can pay back all the debts.
Gambateh~~~

Finally~~

2009-03-23T19:02:00.000-07:00

Finally, i see it with my eyes n heart tat how much she loves me.
Even thought with all those eyes contact, touch, words, cherish and others, all of this is fake and lies.
I shall move on for the rest of my entire life and start the journey of my dreams.
The lady i used to walk with is not like this, the hands i used to hold is not like this, those beautiful eyes are gone.
Regret is too late, Apologize is too late, look back n cry is too late, the only thing u can do now is, think what u should do rite now and it's not go around n ask people what should u do.
Take Care and Good Luck~~

A Rainbow After The Rain~~

2009-03-21T07:39:00.000-07:00

After all the things happen, finally the wave has settle down.
It's matter of time i will stand up again and start my journey of life.
All the supports, advices, motivations and others, all this will be a big push for me to get back on track.
Life Still Goes On.
Take Care~~~

Human is not Immortal~~

2009-03-20T02:13:00.000-07:00

The pain of heart will be numb till u dun feel the pain of gastric, mentally suffer n others.
Memories will be saved but it'll not interrupt the future n instead it makes people grow stronger n better.
I'm confuse why she will did this to me? Yea, i know it's not the question i should ask rite now.
Everything was crystal clear and it's matter of time wash everything away.
i shall be strong n stand up so tat i can keep move towards my dream.
Take Care~~

Everything has a beginning; has an end~~

2009-03-17T08:42:00.000-07:00

While i'm away from M'sia at Melbourne, smth i dun expect n it happen to me. My gf cheated on me.
She went langkawi with a guy; only 2 of them.
7th of march she said she love me n miss me n on 9th of march she said break up with me. she said the reason she said break up with me is because i too controllin her n dun let her go langkawi with tat guy. WAT THE FUCK!!! Are you stupid or act stupid?
Which gf/bf tat love each other won't be jealous tat the gf/bf go an island with only one opposite sex person? whoever reading this pls answer me.
i really cant forget the image in my mind tat wat they did there for the 3days 2night on LANGKAWI island!!! FUCK!!!
we together for 10months and a week and tis is how u treat me? wat the fuck is wrong with u? i dun have car, my own condo or plenty of cash n may be tat guy he have all tat.
it's all fuckin LIES, u told me u dun mind all those things when u together with me but now i only see lies Lies LIes LIEs LIESSSsssss~~~~~~~~~ how can u treat me like tis?
In tis few days i'm keep askin myself why you doin tis to me? WHY? WHY? WHY?
wat tat guy have? a big cock? rich? nice car? own condo? or wat?
u really like those things tat much?
i still rmbr tat night u said "break up" me so easily n 轻松.
all those BULLSHIT u told me be4 now has become LIES n FAKE.
Now my world is colourless n full of Hatred.

I'm back from Melbourne~~

2009-03-15T07:29:00.000-07:00

kinda miss my family, frenz n my bed.
tis time i went melbourne i see alot of things n do learn alot of things too.
i took alot of photos. hehe...
bought shirts, cigarette, 3G iPhone n others.

Australia i'm coming~~~

2009-03-02T07:50:00.000-08:00

finally the day is here, tmr night i'm leaving already.
i think i cant sleep tonight, hehe... kinda nervous n exciting now.
pack up all my stuff tmr cos rite now i'm totally exciting n nervous.
Bye M'sia, i shall see u on 14th/15th.
Aust, i'm coming. hehe...

Footsteps~~

2009-02-26T10:58:00.000-08:00

How many people will really look back wat happen n wat they did?
even thought u do look back, wat u will do abt it? wat u feel for it?
i look back n i saw alot of things, i saw tat i'm lyin to my buddies; i saw i'm hurtin some1 love me with true heart.
i regret n i really feel sorry for it but things already happen n not jus only a SRY can clear it off or settle.
So i move on n be a better person n dun make the mistakes again.
chance is in yr hands, see whether u grap it or not.

FIRE~~

2009-02-24T02:30:00.001-08:00

in the middle of the night 2am++, a guy outside my hse jus keep horn n horn n ask me to call fire department cos my neighbour car inside the house is on FIRE...
i quickly dress up n go out n make the call.
2police cars came n after 20mins finally the BOMBA sudah datang but the fire already put off but the neightbour.
lucky there's no1 hurt in tis fire. God Bless...

LoVe(Four)

2009-02-23T05:23:00.001-08:00

Lately, there's nth much about my love life.
we both discuss n talk about the issues.
hopin the problems can be solve off.
didnt expect much cos the more i expect the more disappointment i get.
so jus let it go on with the flow.
deep down under my heart i'm cant let go of tis relationship n i love really love but my mind n body cant take it anymore(i'm so tired of keep repeating the problems over again n again).
hope things can get better but not get worse.
Love Ya~~~

23rd Feb, Monday~~

2009-02-23T05:19:00.000-08:00

nth much for today, wake up early then went KL to do my Visa(only cost $30).
erm... drive my bro's MyVi cos need to send to factory for services.
after tat stay home the whole day with the the PC. DoTa~~ DoTa~~

What an Ordinary day~~~

2009-02-16T09:31:00.000-08:00

nth special today, jus stay home n play pc.
erm... rite now i'm kinda worried tat i dun have enough $$$ to spend at Aust.
VISA tmr will be callin to the travel agent n ask them to do for me.

Happy Valentine's day~~

2009-02-15T13:11:00.000-08:00

Happy Valentine's Day everybody~~
i spend tis valentine's day with my love one.
walk around KL then at night we went ZOUK Big Love Event.
Free-flow... i invited genji & c.yit along, we have a lot fun.
Hehe... Aiyayayaya~~~

LoVe(Three)

2009-02-10T02:53:00.000-08:00

hehe... our arguement is over but problems still there.
ytd we jus discuss n talk about it so i shall wait for the result n improvement.
no1 is match to each other so we need to discuss n communicate.
i'm tired of keep tellin her wat's the problem n wat should she do.
it problems still there n no improvement then i think it's about matter of time tat i will look for a new gf or let it go.
no more HeartBreak.
LoVe~~~

Oh~~~

2009-02-10T02:46:00.000-08:00

she bought me a PUMA watch.
i like it but i knew it's a watch when u give it to me.
may be i expect too much. haha...

Loneliness & Emptiness~~

2009-02-08T13:55:00.000-08:00

I hate ppl ignore me.
i hate alone.
i hate the feelin of being left out.
sometimes i will do smth stupid jus to get yr attention on me.
can u feel tat?

LoVe(Two)

2009-02-08T12:40:00.000-08:00

Another night miss her so much but at the same time i hate her tat much too.
sometimes i really doubt tat she love me or not?
if u love a person wont u feel a bit regret or smth missing?
when i sit down quietly, suddenly she will appear from nowhere into my brain;
cant eat much, cant sleep well, cant even focus what am doin.
whole day jus walk around like a Goddamn Zombie.
complain is to bring out the problems to discuss with u see how we can settle the problems n it's not jus to share n forget it.
the feelin of secure i dun feel it from tis relationship anymore.
will yr bf/gf argue with u d then go out with a gal/guy?
everytime wat i said she jus keep sayin OK OK OK but after tat she will forget everything.
Another HeartBreak.

LoVe(One)

2009-02-07T11:45:00.001-08:00

i miss her but at the same time i tired of thinkin abt her all the time.
we both always argue, y cant she jus intro her frenz to me?
when u need yr gf/bf at the moment she said/promise i will not leave u when u need me, i'm always there for u but when i need her the most she said she promise her frenz to go club with them so find me after club. Wat The F***.
is tis really fair for me?
watever i said is WRONG but watever she said is RIGHT; wat kinda bullshit is tis?
it's only matter of time i will let go of tis relationship.
HEARTBREAK.

Australia~~

2009-02-07T10:21:00.000-08:00

Australia i'm coming......
erm... kinda excited rite now. 3weeks later i will be goin to aust Melbourne.
then i will be travel alot of places. hehe...
wonder wat will it be? alone travel is my 1st experience.

A wonderful day.

2009-02-06T07:09:00.001-08:00

i'm worried tat i cant get a part time job for tis Feb be4 i'm goin to aust. erm...
today i went to a shoppin mall near my hse n have sushi with my mum n sister.
wat a wonderful day, it's so peaceful n feel good.
even thought ytd n today i'm not happy but when i with my family i already forgot those unhappy things.

Hi~~

2009-02-05T06:29:00.000-08:00

hi everybody, i'm new here.
What's love for u?
is love a thin? a feelin? or smth?
when u happy then u wont think n rmbr the unhappy things, when u unhappy then u will think n remind u all the unhappy things.
people can be so foolish or smart at relationship but i'm definitely the foolish one.
i hate misery. she always make me feel tat.
there's an old chinese saying "你看我好，我看你好."
slowly all the unhappy things had cover up those happy things already.
the light of our relationship is gettin darker n darker, i hardly to see it shine anymore.
sometimes it jus so hard to let it go.