Hey~

Hi guys, last update was JUNE. Whao!!
I'm fine lately and was waiting for my commission. hehe~~
Let's talk about financial 1st, i just closed a deal and right now waiting for my comm. hehe~~~
Family nothing special but added another family member. ROCKY(labrador retriever). Very big side n very quiet.
Love, hehe~~ interesting part. i ended a relationship/friendship with her. i choose an END for it because i can't take it anymore. the longer i stay the stronger feeling i got for her.
Even thought after i ended it, i still dun feel letting go of it because i already had feeling towards her. haiz~~ wat to do. life still goes on and i have to move forward.
hehe~~ when i get my comm i think i should buy myself a watch. hehe~~
Guys, support me ya. Oush JIA YOU JIA YOU~~

Playboy????

After all this while, i'm that playful, flirty, active and so on~~
Am i really born with it? Is this really my FATE? haha~~ i got no idea, u tell me~
i miss alot of ladies in my life that i ever met. Heartless? ASSHOLE? Bastard?
Don't know why i felt that a person's heart can be sharing in many ways or share it with many people(relationship i mean).
Ya of course my lady can't be doing that(YES i know it's selfish).
May be my future will be lie down with many ladies in my life or may be i will be stay single till the day i sleep in the coffin, WHO KNOWS right? haha~~~ GOD KNOWS.
Anyway, just wanna share it with u people here.
i miss her, her n her~~ Muakx. Hugx. love ya.
Take care~~

Fling~~

I'm just dun really wanna make this decision but i can't be selfish or what, so i must make the decision for her because she standing at the position where she can't demand anything.
The feeling from her is strong n i can felt it but i cant just ignore that she had a 6years BF right?
Sometimes i just felt that she's kinda cold but sometimes she's really make me smile n light up my day!!
I'm not that kinda person can live with questions but no answer, u get me?
If she really would speak up n let me know how she feel n what she want then i wont make this decision.
I'm really dun wan to have a FULL STOP for this relationship/friendship.
But the situation leave me no choice.
I like YOU, I miss YOU and I want YOU.
Hugx~ Take Care my dear beloved.

7 Months Later~~

After 7 months i thought i already let it down but actually the mind n feeling still there but just didn't dig it out or pop it out.
One sudden night my friend using my PC to view my profile n saw this picture appear in my photos album and i was surprise n shock to see that.
After November we didnt talk to each other anymore. She live, she die, she suffer, she living happily also none of my business anymore because she leave me no choice but to make this kinda cruel decision.
When u thought u know a person well n that's the time u duno that person well.
My mum go to those fortune teller and they said i better stay away from LOVE, SEX or BF GF stuff because it will bring me bad luck n smth else. haha~~
I think this 2010 i will be stay single, what u think guys? haha~~
SINGLE?

Hey guys~~

Hey guys long time never update my blog.
Lately, i'm having a fling with this "C" lady, she had a 6years BF.
Haha~~ yeah i know it's suprise neither do i.
Just a bottle of black label will do the MAGIC n pull us together.
I asked her "do u have feeling towards me?"
She said "i dun wan to make u sad or make u happy about the answer."
So i duno what should i do, sometimes in my mind i would just think about her n wanna get along with her but sometimes i just wanna disappear away from her life n leave her in peace.
May be i'm just too free or lonely so i will think about her or wanna get along with her.
Damn~~ what's wrong with me?
Sorry Jesus, i have sin, please forgive me!!

"QUESTION MARK"

I tried to communicate with u, I TRIED but i didn't get any respond/answer from u.
Things carry on like that and one day someone will get hurt.
I dun wan us become strangers one day.
I didn't ask for anything but i only ask for answer/respond.
Haiz~~ I don't want to make decision from my heart or mind but i wanna listen from u.
Whatever decision it is, i will respect u because i don't like to force people.

You are my QUESTION MARK but not my confusion~

Stuart & "Penny"~

Haha~~ lately we kinda close to each other.
We go yam cha and supper then we talk about each other life n discuss about love.
She asked me to give her an english name!! haha~~ so i do research n survey, end up i come up with PENNY this name.
PENNY this name not bad what but she seem dun really get used to it or don't like it.
oh She hate VIVIAN or VIVI this name because smth to do with her love. haha~~
No worry one day she will be fine n be a PRO. haha~~
i never knew this day will come. i mean after we break up this long n end up we still keep in touch and come out.
Take care and don't be like me one day HWEI XIAN~~ u will regret because i'm taking all the sin n it's my pay back time. DON'T FOLLOW MY PATH~~
HUGX~

S.O. & C.N.

The topic represent names.
Things happen kinda awkward lately, she's away but sometimes i will think of her.
Not often but sometimes. i hate those people who spoiled other people relationship but right now i feel that am i that kinda person?
Damn~~ i should just let things follow the flow. Just enjoy the time we have.
Her smile attract me the most. Hehe~~ just a smile can light up my day.
Father, i have SIN. Please forgive me~

Father, i have SIN~~

Lately, i'm kinda busy n close with someone.
She had a 6years boyfriend.
I follow her to celebrate her Kai Jie birthday and we both just drank some not till that TIPSY~~
After that night, something happen.
I'm kinda confuse for that kinda situation.
When we hang out, we hang out like FRIENDS but deep down we know what's going on.
Sometimes thing just so WEIRD huh? i hate those 3rd person in the relationship n GUESS WHAT, i Stuart Ong become the 3rd person right NOW~~ haha~~ God must be testing me. haha~~
Who knows what happen next rite?

What Goes Around...Comes Around

Guys i can tell u "What Goes Around...Comes Around" it's really true.
I never thought things will be this dramatic in my life.
It's exactly like a mirror or playback video!!
I'm glad for this experience but feel SHAME for myself.
How many people? how many friends around u could really sit down n look back what they did n see what they did and feel regret for it?
Sometimes i hope i can turn back the time and just control myself not to let this thing happen.
It's GOD or ME who making all this things happen? DESTINY? FATE? 人为?
People said dun look back and should move forward but for me, i move forward n look back too.

She edit this photo and she love it so much that time and she even wrote blog about us n herself.
Such a silly girl but i like it. Right now i'm standing at her position n feel how she felt last time.
The feeling really is so difficult to explain. haha~~ Such a silly person am i now.
i love this photo right now. one of my wish for my birthday doesn't come true anymore!!
God bless her for me FATHER!!!

什么是对?什么是错?

Can u still specific what is right what is wrong?
Lately i'm kinda awake n crystal clear about what i'm thinkin and doing.
I lie down n start thinkin what's happening lately and i see alot of things.
I'm kinda worry my friends and those person i care the most but i just duno how to show them or tell them how i feel n what to do.
Atleast a msg will be just fine, right?
Jia you my buddies and Bros. Take care and god bless u all.

GooD DaY~~

Lately kinda busy with my career and hang around with my outsider friends.
i feel so real and happy, Sorrow no longer happen to me.
Hehe~~~ bye bye SORROW and say hi to happiness.
i wonder how r u lately? wanted to hang around with u but feel like always get rejected or u busy.
My birthday is just around the corner, i just hope i can have a wonderful memory with u.

Just a SECOND~~~

Damn~~~ tonight i almost die n u guys gonna attend my funeral~ SHIT!!!
i was back from a gathering with my friends then i had a few beers.
When i'm on the way home i drive 80/90km/h because someone told me to. then i avoid a cat on the middle of road then i turn to my left n there's a car speeding behind middle lane.
SHIT~~~ i duno how to express here man.
One line can describe it all~~~ "ALMOST THERE MAN"~~~
GOD BLESSING ME n my GRANDMA~~~
THANKS n i will not speeding.

回到过去~

Lately i keep rewind back all my past.
I saw tears and laughter. I hope i can turn the clock back.
I hope i didn't met EVE before.
I hope i didn't argue with Chin Yuan.
I hope i didn't hook up with that at club n didn't break up with Hwei Xian.
A lot of things happen in my past but all of them are unhappy things.
Yes, people should look forward but not look backward.
Sometimes, look backward i really feel so stupid that why u did this why u did that, haha~~ dun u think it'll make u laugh or drop a few tears for it? Yes it does.
A lot of people ask me which of your ex give u memorable memories? i will answer them it is EVE because i been through a lot with her.
If u ask me which of my ex treat me the best? i think i will answer u, HWEI XIAN, because she's the one who treat me nice n never give up on me but i let her go n left her alone at the corner n walk away(yes i know i'm such a ASSHOLE).
What over is over, i only can move on n be a better man.
God i have SIN, please forgive me.

ARGH~~~

It's been a long time i feel this much for caring a person.
may be it's just because i myself thinking too much or being stupid to act like this.
whatever la, F*** IT~~
whatever u wanna do then u just go do it because i'm tired of it.
duno what else to say la...

找回自我~

The Stuart Ong u knew was long gone, i also duno why. May be because i still living in my past.
A body without a soul! i feel so lost lately.
I share all of feeling with my friends and i get a lot of feedback.
It's time for me to move on. i must not wasting my time like that. i should start pumping up myself.
Throw away the laziness and start doing exercise, help out my family, search a job and stabilize my life.
Some one please wack, slap, kick or wake me up!!!! PLEASE~~ i'm struggling here. i feel so suffer!!!
Jia You Jia You~~
This is what the name "Stuart" looks like in Japanese.
It is pronounced "SUCHUAATO".

三宝~~

One night i accept 3gifts/experiences, i truly can see what's going on and what's happening.
I'm glad that i make that decision that night.
It's been a long time i never hear her voice and talk to her like that.
I see what goes around comes around. hehe~~ CAUTION!! DANGER!!
I learn smth from the others and also myself.
Think is useless but doing it is much more meaningful. hehe~~
I didnt talk to u doesn't mean i'm not care about it. Got it? wink~~ hehe~~
Jia You ba~~

GAME OVER~~

Everything has a beginning has an end.
Every game also got an ending so for my past it is time to call GAME OVER.
it's better i spend more time on my career, health, family, money and friends.
For love, nah i think i will take it slow now.
4Months single now, haha~~ i bet my friends will be shock n tease me for that. hehe~~
Your comment will mean alot to me, so just feel free to leave a comment here. TQ
God Bless~~

Struggling~~

After 4months i thought i forgot about her but until yesterday midnight i think about her again so i go to facebook and view her profile and i saw she upload few new photos and in the photos she's wearing the scarf that i gave her.
Yes, it doesn't mean anything but it means a lot to me.
I lost control again. End up i sent her an email, sorry guys. i really can't take it, my body's shaking and my mind keep on thinking our past.
God i have sin, please forgive me.

Lately~~

Lately, my mood kinda going up and down.
I keep on thinking about her lately. it's really bothering me and i can't focus.
Sometimes it just come across my mind suddenly and disappear later.
Health getting bad, moody always and less appetite.
If i keep on like this, my life will be a mess and live like a TRASH.
Time is what i need, Focus on my career is what i need to do and Get back my normal n health life is what i must.
Oush~~ Jia You Jia You STUART ONG.